Sometimes its a bit difficult...

Recently I receive a message on Facebook from very good friend of mine.  In the last few months he's been going through some difficult times.  Knowing his situation I have tried my best to keep in contact with him, which has proved difficult.

We are separated by a couple of counties, so just popping over to say "Hi," isn't exactly easy.  Granted when I was single I  didn't have any difficulty making the journey, but being married and having a family makes planning for such an outing much more difficult.  Not that I'm trying to make excuses for not going to see a very dear friend, but its difficult.

I've tried calling him a few times as well.  The problem there is my work schedule.  Working third shift makes it difficult to call someone who works day shifts.  Knowing that when we do finally get into contact on the phone that we tend to talk for a good long time also leads to not dropping a line at the drop of a hat.  There's so much to do that I don't often have time to spend talking for twenty minutes to an hour on the phone.  Again with the excuses.

As I said before, I just received a message from my friend after a lengthy period of not talking to him.  The message read, "Sorry I have been a shitty friend lately."  I don't think that his stance on this is warranted.  If anything, I'm the one who has been a shitty friend.

I know that he is going through a life changing situation, whether its for worse or for better is something for him to decide, but I don't feel that I have made a good enough effort to contact and support one of my best friends in the world.  After all, if he is the one who is going through difficult times, he's also got to deal with all the emotional stress, negative feelings, heartache and depression that goes along with all he and his family have been through.

And I haven't been there for him.

To my friend, I am truly sorry.  You are a great man and a great friend.  Please know that I have been praying for you and your family to find peace within your hearts.  I know that this is a hard time to go through, and I'm going to tell you something you taught me a few years ago; even when it doesn't feel like it, God is always there for you.  Even if you're mad at life, or mad at Him, He's always there for you, no matter what.